Why??

Sigh.
No outlet, still.
Will I keep blocking my own outlets?
Will I keep losing myself?
I think Blogging is lost to me.
That incarnation of me, the one that existed here, feels like it will never resurface.
But that could just be for today.
Maybe another day I will be charged with spunk
but today I am sick, which makes me tired.
And today I am still able to have my mood soured by the stupidest, least logical things.
I simply MUST find a way to reign that shit in.
Also, it would be cool to remember how to express myself in print.

fuck this all.
Maybe I'll get a job and join the rest of the world...